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Trapped in a crystal ball

I woke one day to find myself trapped in a crystal ball,
I thought it nice, I did not see its walls were narrowing down on me!
Many a day, as a child, I used to dream – a ballerina – I would swirl, I would enchant, I would daydream while dancing!
I found myself later on still dreaming, dancing, swirling through life, fantasizing of you – but no enchantment did I achieve
- your cold heart I did not move,
      no fire did I put there?
And yet I tried,
      and then I cried,
I lingered,
      I begged,
            I let myself pass for a lunatic
              - you would not have me love you!

I went away, I swore I’d never come back one day,
I damned my fate, I cursed your eyes,
You did not move, you’d rather I die under the glass…

Since I have not lived your love
I cannot live my forgetting you
- I find myself eternally trapped
    in remembering,
        and remembering,
            and remembering!

I swirl and sway in the crystal ball, drops of snow and flakes of memories
all come down on me – the outsiders find it so precious,
the delicate thing enchants them each day
- but why does nobody brake the glass, and let me crawl among the shattered bits, to find a new way?
To find a new stage where I could perform, and maybe this time the prince wouldn’t run, to hide behind the walls of the little palace within the globe, under the delusive snow!
Maybe this time we’d end up just fine,
Under white petals,
    walking on soft emeralds,
        drunk of love and fragrance!

Maybe this time he’d love me too,
- and not be just my dream, but the fantasy of two.

Maybe in his arms and looking in his eyes I’d find eternity,
and I’d find that the crystal ball
    is in fact the universe
        - containing it all!